re-member me

 

How you choose to remember — determines how the broken dismembered things in your life will be remade and re-membered.

You have to choose to intentionally remember God’s goodness, if you want your brokenness to be re-membered into wholeness.

– Ann Voskamp

A lot has changed since my last post in January.

 

I’m finishing up my birthday – which is also on Mother’s Day this year (every 6 or 7 years that happens)

 

It was a really solidly good day!

I have no message beyond this birthday update at the moment….Hope all is well!

 

PS

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authenticity

27 years ago I got a glimpse of something super important…

maybe one of the most important things I ever learned…

that the motivations behind our actions…

was really even more important than our actual actions….

It blew my mind a little…

ok….more than a little……

to think about how much I was doing out of guilt…

rather than a place of truth and love…

as i began to live my life with that new principle in place…

my life drastically changed…

I do not believe this is a widely known or practiced philosophy…

it is very difficult to actually live this…

yet, more and more, I believe it is vital to our lives…

and to our work in the world…

I continue to excavate and challenge myself to know why I am choosing what I am choosing….

it makes all the difference….

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being real is not something we do to show off, or blow off anyone…

it is the act of paying utmost respect to the life and gifts we’ve been given…

and THAT is what each and every is life all about!!!

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(on the God path photo by Robin OK  – all other photos/memes found on Google images or Pinterest / al513

getting down to truth

truth
tro͞oTH/
noun
  1. the quality or state of being true.
    • that which is true or in accordance with fact or reality.
      noun: the truth
      “tell me the truth”
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    truth is tricky…

    there are parts of us that fight to defend ourselves against truth…

    but this is the simple truth….

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    we must keep opening to truth…

    challenging our own belief systems…

    as we do things begin to change in our lives…

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    layer by layer we move into our highest and best selves…

    truth by truth

    here’s a tip…

    throw out the judgement and get curious…

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    we are here to learn and to grow and enjoy life….

    let’s do it together!

wind beneath our wings

for many years I did almost everything without anyone’s help…

I realized ‘no man is an island’ but I was not in a safe space to allow…

over the past few years I have finally found myself able to allow people to help me…

it’s been an incredible few years of learning…

 

giving and taking…are both parts of this thing called gift…

giving and receiving are a big part of what it takes to be balanced and healthy in life…

I am so grateful for experiencing so many miraculous happenings…

so grateful for the people who have been the wind…

I am so grateful…

so very, very grateful for every single gift…

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Thank you…

I love you, too

– Mom ❤

places of awe

I have moved into a place of holy wonder on the path…

there are so many things resolving into bliss…

shapes of bliss surrounding my mornings…

shape of beauty wrapping my nights…

When things begin to work there is a natural tendency in humans….

to be afraid it won’t last and so not enjoy these moments…

I am conscience and choosing to move into joy and freedom…

I am trusting this moment…

I am shoeless in amazement and expanded in wonder…

every morning I wake with wonder

at where I am

at what is happening in this moment

how phat these days are

how rich this morning’s avocado on toast

how abundant the morning sunshine

how freely the windmills turn

how beds of gold and grey hold me so very tenderly in the night

how moments we enter into with another brings such unlimited expansion

how a tender act can change the chemistry of the whole world

how $4 can change someone’s whole day’s experience

how much there is beyond ourselves

and every sip is as sweet as the nectar of the gods

of how we get to do it

we get to choose it

every moment

of every day

as a prayer

as a song

as a gift

🌝

Amy Lloyd

for these past 27 years I’ve worked for this moment…

reward

and still it is the way…

never…never…never…

quit

making space

grief and healing are a difficult process…

we carry all of the events of our lives in our bodies…

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(this chart is just a small example…)

in order to live the lives we desire we must acknowledge,

feel

and release

the traumatic events stuck in our bodies…

this is not easy or simple work…

these events will continue to effect our lives until we deal with them…

I have been working through my personal healing process of the past 27 years…

I want my life to be full of joy…

full of music and passion and love…

in order to achieve that I have made the choice to live mindfully,

pay close attention…

take responsibility for my actions…

both good and bad…

and do the work to heal my life…

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The past year and a half I have been doing deep, transformational work in my healing journey due to a simple tool called Tapping (EFT – Emotional Freedom Technique)

Check out The Tapping Solution Website

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as we clear our pain we must remember that we are moving into new territory…

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we suddenly have room inside for new ways of living…

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only when we release the pain can we claim the love we want and deserve…

I will never tell you this is easy…

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I will always tell you it is worth it!

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reclaiming the roots

Lots going on for me in this past quarter…

It’s been the full spectrum of choices…

I have had to live in new levels of trust I’ve never experienced before…

My body tauter, poised to carry.
When I pitch forward
I tumble inside.

Each time I try,
an algal bloom
replaces language’s surface.

Ruby-red & unmoored,
waves over laminate surfaces…
Everything alive aching
for more aliveness.

I love the world,
push it away reflexively.
Make songs like
negated charges on a circuit.
Syntax arches towards
the back of
a neck. Inside emotion:
a corralling of emotion.

Love in the larval stage:
terror of surrender.
Unraveling, a path.

Words were not made for us.
They are above, we submit.

We are like the rock beneath
the water,

even if we created the water.

Radial Scent by Sharon Wang

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The depths of emotions I have experienced has shaken the foundations of my being…

and in this crazy place of radical trust the redemption has begun…

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My story, though very hard in places, is all miracle…

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It is all about love…

 

This article helped me to understand some things the other day…

Reclaiming Our Roots

Daily OM BY MADISYN TAYLOR

As we begin to see more clearly the people we come from, we can begin to alter our perception of who we are now.

 

Some cultures are more rooted to the earth and connected to their inherent spirituality. But every one of us, even those of us who have been disconnected from our roots for hundreds of years, comes from a place that was once inhabited by people who worshipped and honored the earth on which they lived. In other words, we can all claim this wisdom as an essential part of who we are.

One way we can begin to rediscover our roots is to explore the early earth-based religions practiced in the parts of the world that birthed our ancestors. If we explore the ancient spiritual practices of our ancestors, we will find that their practices and beliefs share many elements with Native American, African, and aboriginal religious traditions. People who are connected to the earth and honor her share a fundamental philosophy that we can claim as our own because we too are of the earth. Many of us have become so disconnected from the earth that it feels foreign and awkward to imagine communing with her or performing a ritual for her. If we are honest, though, we will find within ourselves a yearning to feel more connected, more grounded, and more at home in this world. This yearning can lead us back to our disowned roots, which, of course, leads us right into the heart of the earth.

As we begin to see more clearly the people we come from, we can begin to alter our perception of who we are now, laying claim to our inherent relatedness to the earth. We might celebrate this by observing the ancient calendar of solstices and equinoxes, celebrating and honoring the cycle of the seasons as our ancestors did, or we might explore any one of the many earth-based practices through reading or participating in ritual. When we do these things, we tap back into our roots, finding nourishment at the wellspring of our earthly origins, the source we share with all of humanity.

wait

there is something that few of us like to do…

waiting is a difficult art…

Patience is a significant element of success, and procrastination is a significant element of failure.                           Full Article Here

 

I have found the truth to developing the virtue of patience is this…

breathing into the waiting may be the very most important thing you can do…

inhale…..

exhale……

x3 /repeat to infinity

(keep singing…shooby-doo)

 

 

I have done a whole lot of waiting over the past 20 years…

I will never tell you virtues become easy…

any discipline we learn is a challenge…

I will tell you the value is worth the pain….

 

No matter how far from ‘home’ you are right now…

know life is working for you!

Keep doing the work…

keep listening to the voice inside…

keep trusting yourself…

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you are going the right way…

 

 

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